I wish I could sleep. I wish I could feel better. I wish I could kiss him. Oh my god I this. I want so bad to just drive to his house and just kiss him. No words just kisses. Fuck dude what is going on?
Sorry for all the text posts. But god do I miss him even though he’s a shit head. We had so many good times. It’s hard to get used to sleeping alone and not waking up next to him and seeing him everyday. Damnit why did he have to leave? I need to go to bed.
It’s so weird being back at my moms house in my room again. I held off on telling her about the break up until I was sure it was over and also because it was embarrassing really. I completely moved out of her house to go live with this boy who I thought would take care of me always. But as soon as shit hit the fan, he ran away and claims that “he doesn’t want to take care of anyone” and “he doesn’t want to be with me anymore”. I know the main reason was because I’m currently unemployed because that’s why we had most of our arguments. But it’s sad because if the situation was the other way around and he didn’t have a job and I did, I would take care of him for who knows how long. That’s what you do when you love someone. You’re there for them no matter what. I was always there and I did my best and it wasn’t enough for him. It just comes down to the fact that he wasn’t enough for me. He was not the type of man that I need in my life.